Thursday, April 15, 2010

Coping with the "E" word


I didn't know how to title this post. So, I went with what I am dealing with lately.........the "E" Word. Thats what I call it. Its hard for me to even say it. Epilepsy. sigh. Now I have said it. My Gillian was having some bad side effects from the medication they started her on. Just when I was getting used to the idea of her being medicated and the possibility of things getting better, things got worse. So now, we are back to square one. We are probably going to have to start her on another medication now. Not happy, but no other option at this point. I think the past couple of days are the first days I have smiled or laughed, so I am making some progress. Trying not to dwell on it too much -I don't want to consume myself with it all day. I am still sort of in my "hermit" status. Don't really like to go out much-don't really want to talk to anyone. I guess its just the way I am coping right now. I am giving myself that permission.

Right now I am taking baby steps. I have tried to get back into doing some art-the last couple days what I have started just have not worked out. Got the acrylic paints out and other supplies and it just did not work out. I told myself its okay. Just try again. Today I got the stamps out and it felt so therapeutic to do something constructive.
Stamps are from IBFS

8 comments:

Lenna Young Andrews said...

well, i love what you created Kristy, it is beautiful and meaningful... and I think doing that art was probably one of the best things you could have done to help yourself cope. i'd say, right on!

cockney blonde said...

Thinking of you Kristy, you know I understand what you are going through. I think the artwork is brill and depicts 'you' even if you don't feel it. But you are courageous and strong and you will get through this.
Take care my friend, x

Lisa Gallup said...

Do what YOU have to do to get yourself through this so you can stay strong for Gillian. Both my kids have been through some tough times ... suicidal, depression, lots of therapy. Sometimes I just had to retreat, sometimes I needed warm sunshine, sometimes I got lost in my art. Do whatever you need and know you have lots of supporters here. xoxo

Dawn said...

aww i feel ya! Good for you for keep trying.

g.neumann55 said...

Kristy please visit our web site

http://www.epilepsycureinitiative.ca

Talk to you soon,

Best Wishes,

Gary

Dianne said...

Keep up your art therapy... Your piece is lovely... I'm sure things will get better.

Cath Wilson said...

And it looks so good, too! You'll get there, my love - just take it easy and realise it's not the end of the world. It's a condition and can be managed. She'll be fine. It's very common for girls of her age to get the 'e' word - they often grow out of it! Take heart. Praying for you :)

Wanda H said...

Your card is beautiful!! My mom has epilepsy so it's been part of my whole life. It's good you could stamp and get that "therapy" time. ((HUGS))