I didn't know how to title this post. So, I went with what I am dealing with lately.........the "E" Word. Thats what I call it. Its hard for me to even say it. Epilepsy. sigh. Now I have said it. My Gillian was having some bad side effects from the medication they started her on. Just when I was getting used to the idea of her being medicated and the possibility of things getting better, things got worse. So now, we are back to square one. We are probably going to have to start her on another medication now. Not happy, but no other option at this point. I think the past couple of days are the first days I have smiled or laughed, so I am making some progress. Trying not to dwell on it too much -I don't want to consume myself with it all day. I am still sort of in my "hermit" status. Don't really like to go out much-don't really want to talk to anyone. I guess its just the way I am coping right now. I am giving myself that permission.
Right now I am taking baby steps. I have tried to get back into doing some art-the last couple days what I have started just have not worked out. Got the acrylic paints out and other supplies and it just did not work out. I told myself its okay. Just try again. Today I got the stamps out and it felt so therapeutic to do something constructive.