Its been a really hard week. This homeschooling has finally got to me.............I just don't think I can do it anymore. We have an Autism class here locally so I am going to seriously look into it. In all this, I am losing myself. I just don't get the opportunity to do all I want anymore. Things that help define me as a person, not just as a mother of a special needs child. I find myself thinking of how happy I used to be-I used to spend hours doing art when she was at school (before they started calling me for EVERY LITTLE THING). At the end of the day, I felt fulfilled, being I had done something I loved every day. I LONG for that. Now my day consists of caring for her every day, all day. Everytime I sit and try to do something, she needs something , and takes me out of my zone. I know that first and foremost, I am her mom. I am well aware of that. But aside from that , with homeschooling I am losing myself.